Thinking of writing u a rock song…
Feel so wasted, insecure and lost,
The sadness makes me feel drunk
I’m stuck in this hollow fall.
Down…down in the pits of hurt
I feel delirious with all the pain inside
Feel so low…could pass as bein high
Every minute I break down again…and cry
Miss the headache the booze gives me
Miss the twitching pain of the needle
Miss the high of a last dope
Miss burnin life up in a chain of smoke
Hate the poison that swirls in me…
Every time I wake up in this damned city
Wanna run away from here, from this bed
To seek refuge from hating more of myself.
Wanna scream baby, but there’s too much silence
My chaos stabs daggers…takes shelter in my weakness
Every sleep writhes me with quiet nightmares
N every waking moment is a hopeless repair.
I’m tied to so many unforgettable pasts
While my present remains so damn empty…
The future seems caught in shreds of translucent hope
My glazed stupor tries to salvage some reason to live.
Dunno rock from pop, a poem from a song…
Who am I, does it matter anymore…
Things don’t get better…they just get worse
And as I try to hold on over nothin, I feel cursed.
I die a new death every single day
I don’t even get jaded, the pain still remains…
I fly away in the midnight of haunts
My life refuses to reach into me thru’ this grave
Rescue me, no one can
Inebriated by anger, life’s ironies simply stare
I feel zombied like the rest of ‘em
Passing with me on the same road from life to death.
My heart feels like plastic
Melting from the slightest warmth
N as it all turns too soon too cold
It’s done up in another nameless, lifeless mould.
Your love’s written up on the epitaph of my soul
‘Tis safest there…beyond my flaming hell
When my sorrow has rampaged, destroyed me whole
I hope you’ll still read it the same way as before.
Touch me, n you’ll touch my bleeding heart
Kiss me, n you’ll hear a scream in the dark
Hold me, I’ll hurt like broken glass
Love me…coz baby… u are my last.
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